Sat 22 Aug 2009

Have you ever felt like just running away? I have - a LOT and for a long time now.

We spend our entire lives as slaves to the system, working in pointless jobs that serve no higher purpose than to pay the bills at the end of every month. We live behind big walls, surrounding ourselves with things, placing value in objects that have no real value. We find security in our things and value ourselves by the amount of money we have in the bank and the labels that we wear. Each week, month, year flies by - one not much different from the last. And where does it actually get us in the end anyway? Old and sick, living off a meagre pension, still just trying to get by. And what will we have really achieved?


Everywhere you look, everyone is telling the same story. Everyone seems to be struggling. The battle to make ends meet is just too much. I'm referring mainly to the average, regular joe public, but I'm sure that even those who are financially abundant have noticed a drop in income. We know for a fact that we are in a global recession, but the 'powers that be' would like us to believe that it's all going to be ok. Define ok? Is this current economy that RULES OUR LIVES really ok? Is the way that we feel about money ok: the way we are happy when we have it and in a complete spin when we don’t? People regularly end their own lives and commit murder because of the lack of it, and it is one of the major causes of relationship break-downs. The world is split into the ‘haves’ and the ‘have nots’ in varying degrees. The rich get richer and the poor get poorer. A lawyer can charge up to R1,500 per hour while the public servant who carries away our garbage is on minimum wage. Who says that the one guy’s job is worth more that the others? None of it makes sense: banks, governments, the Receiver of Revenue, major corporations, law enforcement agencies and armies, advertising and the media – all these institutions tie us up in knots. We spend our entire lives trying to tow the line and ‘do the right thing’ and forget that we have a life to live and experiences to experience. If you’d like to know more, click on this link to read a really crisp and refreshing view of our economy and the way it all works, a parable written by Dr Michael Sharp: http://www.michaelsharp.org/ebooks/rocketguide.pdf

I could go on and on, and I probably will (watch this space), but I’d like to talk a bit about where all of this ‘senseless living’ has led us - my husband Mark and I. We want nothing more to do with it. If you really think about it, all we really need to survive is sustenance, shelter and love. If we have all 3 we’ll survive, right? So what is all the rest but distraction? There is a big beautiful world out there filled with amazing people just waiting to be experienced. And here we are, stuck on the hamster wheel. And the thing that stops us from looking for another way of BEING is fear. Fear of change, fear of lack, fear of failure, fear of being judged. Yes, all change is scary, but I also believe that all change is good, especially when the old ways of doing things just doesn’t work anymore.

We’ve all heard about self-sustainability, free-energy and going off the grid, but the trick is how to get from here, a ‘normal’ life to there. Out of everybody who we have shared our vision with, a vast majority have responded with: ‘I wish I could do that!’ If I can do this, anyone can. I’m as regular and normal as can be (although I suppose my friends and family may disagree). I’m terrified of any creepy-crawly and just as terrified of change. The never-ending parade of ‘what-if’s’ parading through my mind is literally causing nausea and heart palpitations. But my dissatisfaction and frustration with the ‘way things are’ is greater.

We are where we are because of all the choices we have made throughout our lives that have led us to this point – personally and globally as mass consciousness. And if we are unhappy with where we are, the only way to change it is to choose to do something else. I choose to let go. I choose to experience life. I choose not to live this limited and pointless existence any longer than absolutely necessary.

So, we have 3 months before we begin our journey: the house that we are renting has been sold and we must move out by the end of Nov 2009. We’re going to sell most of our possessions and travel the country in a caravan and 4x4 with our dog, Pilgrim. We’re going out into the deep blue yonder in search of greener pastures, trusting that Divine Guidance will lead us ever forward toward freedom.

This is our journey and I’ll document the ‘trip’ right here; the entire process – our hopes and fears, our challenges and insights. And hopefully we can inspire hope in others.

In my next entry, I’ll talk a bit about our story so far – how we got to this point. I’ll also go more into our vision for out future.

Til next time, in service and light

Caron